CHRISTIANA SPENS

“Spens writes herself back to life – and it is a joy to behold.”— The Irish Times

“A powerfully affecting tale of devastation and survival."— The Spectator

“The Fear is a brave book, both in its emotional openness and honesty, as well as in its complex editorial ambition, which in the hands of a lesser writer could become incoherent. Instead, Spens elegantly segues between the affecting context of her personal life, and a strand of cultural criticism which brilliantly reframes the first quarter of our current century.”— The Idler

“Made up of equal parts pain, intimacy, desolation and tenderness, The Fear extracts beauty and meaning from a reckoning with great private darkness.” — Rob Doyle

“The Fear considers how trauma manifests in ways that seem too powerful to tolerate and how it can seem that emotion could be traded or outran by another equally strong emotion, like love. A brilliant look at the maze of personal history and how the wounds we carry will continue to make their journey through us, one way or another.” — Jenni Fagan

“An at times sickeningly lucid exploration of our shadow selves, a stare into heartbreak and trauma as personal and political concerns… But despite the subject matter, The Fear isn’t a depressing book. By searching in the dark places and asking herself uncomfortable questions, the author finds a strength and describes being reacquainted with forgotten parts of herself.” — The Brixton Review of Books

“Spens writes beautifully about self-government… The writing is so wonderfully strong about fragility… Read it and heal; never heel to another, mind you.” — Ambit.

"Intellectually vivifying and deeply moving, The Fear is a dazzling memoir that dances between the cerebral and the tender." — Sam Mills, author of The Fragments of my Father

"The Fear is an astonishing book. Spens manages to weave a hybrid tapestry, in which we move fluidly between memoir, philosophy, art and politics. The result is a book that takes us to the edge, lets us look into the abyss, makes us confront a myriad array of fears and their consequences. It is a bold, beautiful and brave book; in it's form, in the lyricism of its style and in the intensity of its interrogations. At the level of intellectual curiosity, psychological honesty and political urgency it is a text of staggering depth and variety. Spens writes a text that will speak to us all, to the fears that sit heavy on our chests. The result, rather surprisingly, is a book that makes us feel a little less alone, that seems to lift the fear a little, to let us breath fresh air." —Tom de Freston, author of Wreck.

“The Fear is a hybrid memoir and cultural study, which uses the personal to reach into the depths of the psychology of fear. Artist and writer Christiana Spens explores how fear impacts our lives – from the personal to the political, through gender politics to terrorism – referring to images, art, films, philosophy and more. The memoir aspect is written with intellectual detachment creating almost a fable of fear, that space 'between fear and anxiety' both a psychological study and an intimate portrayal of a woman making sense of the world. It is a finely tuned, fascinating interrogation of an emotion that hijacks us all. Both intimate and psychologically rigorous, The Fear pushes the bounds of memoir into intellectual territory.” — Lily Dunn, author of Sins of My Father

“For such a cerebral book, it is also tender and humane; Spens counterbalances her intellectual considerations with moments of stark honesty, and it is touching to see her find inner calm toward the end of the book. It is also a testament to her talent that, although she is dealing with heavy subjects, the reader feels lighter for having taken the journey with her. The Fear deserves a wide readership.” — Buzzmag.

“Combining philosophical study and personal experience, The Fear leads you through the shadows, pointing out some particularly murky points along the way then provides you with a light to make it through to the other side. Throughout The Fear, [Spens’] experiences are woven with critical, philosophical study, self-reflections and the contemplation of art and politics to ultimately deliver a message of love. At once cerebral and vulnerable, Spens’ memoir offers both psychological study and a helping hand on a topic that's relatable to us all. The combination of personal experience and an almost academic study encouraged me to reflect on my own experiences of fear, the distancing, dissociative patterns that are so tempting to fall into while not quite facing it enough to heal. As a critical study, it engaged my brain and appealed to my need to explain away the mystery. As a personal memoir, it spoke to me with a message of hope and a lasting reminder that we’re never alone.” — LoveReading

“We carry within us our own shadow. This inner darkness, this phantom self, is a pillar of Jungian thought — and a guiding influence on what Christiana Spens calls ‘The Fear’, a broad existential state that forms the backbone of this philosophical memoir. The Fear, writes Spens, is the ‘emotional reality of oppression, whether it manifests as an individual battle with repressed memories and desires, or overt socio-political conflicts’.
“— Review31

You can read an excerpt, Heartbreakers, in The London Magazine, and another, Still Lives, In 3:AM Magazine, as well as an interview in Dazed about related subjects of online culture, fear and the military. You can also read an article adapted from the book — on masochism in relationships — in Stylist, an article on art therapy in Welldoing Magazine, and an essay “Our Father Issues: A Reading List of Spiritual Disillusionment” in Lithub.

Awarded The Society of Authors Work in Progress Grant, 2022

Selected for The Irish Times Best Books to Read in 2023.

EVENTS:

24 November 2022: “Playing Up” at The Freud Museum, London.

23rd March - 18th February 2023: ‘Someone Borrowed, Someone Blue” — an exhibition at The Stash Gallery, Vout-O-Reenee’s, London.

16 March 2023: Book launch at Vout-O-Reenee’s, London

4 April 2023: In Conversation with Chloe Ashby (the author of Wet Paint) at TenderBooks, London.

14 July 2023: City Lit — Late Lines Headliner

17 November 2023: Winchester School of Art — guest lecture

12 March 2024: The London Book Fair (in discussion with Talitha Fosh, author of Hooked)

20 June 2024: In[Theory] at Gallery 43, in discussion with Dr Pablo De Orellana and Dom Bouffard on intergenerational trauma

22 November 2024: Folkestone Book Festival (“Surviving the Taliban”—in discussion with Adad Qureshi)